Changing Location

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Two Pillars

Life is spontaneous and plans change. It’s something I’ve learned to embrace and not running short on any time soon. I grew up making plans and dreaming up ideas. I have a long list of careers that I’ve wanted to do; doctor, artist, art curator, drama teacher, marine biologist, French teacher, social worker, writer, missionary, florist, psychologist, counselor, street evangelist (those who know me can start laughing at that one),  youth worker…  the list continues and includes countries. However, ideas change and even now it takes getting used to the quickness that it does in YWAM and the different routes that seem to sprout in unlikely places.

I attended the ‘Western Europe DTS Staff and Leaders Gathering’ at a nearby YWAM base for a week. It’s designed for networking, being refreshed and seeking the Lord for the schools with bases from around Europe. For me, it meant a week to make a decision. 

An opportunity arose to staff the coming January school under the leadership of one of my mentors. An opportunity to continue being discipled by people who know me well while continuing to grow in my discipleship of others in an intentional way. Saying yes would mean saying later to the Biblical Core Course (BCC) that I was wanting to do in Switzerland and saying no to Christmas at home and more time with my family. Praying about it and desiring a clear cut answer, I was quite frustrated by the answer:

‘Both are good. There isn`t a right or wrong choice’. 

The idea that this might eventually be simply a decision for me to make instead of a ‘yes’ or ‘no’ answer from God freaked me out. What if I chose the wrong one (despite feeling there wasn’t one)?

The first day of the gathering, we talked about faith. What is God speaking already that goes past us into the unknown? (There seems to be a theme this past year where I am continually confronted by the topic of faith and trusting without understanding). As the speaker led us into a time of declarations and standing up for what God has said, I had a picture come to my mind. Two pillars, two options. One crumbled, one stood. It was then I knew what they represented.  There was no right or wrong option that I could have chosen. There was simply the best option out of two. And right now, I've detoured to come back to Harpenden.

As I’ve changed my plans, do I think I’m making the right choice staffing the January school? No. Do I think I’ve made the best choice? In faith, yes. Logistics might make me go crazy in these next few months but that will be another story.